its been a week i in pilah...but when things about my study comes out...i feel a bit stress...sbb nyer ak sngkut 7 sbject...jd ak pening..which way is better...samaada nk ambek tros 7 sbject...or..make it half2...4 sem ny..3 sem dpan....2 yg mmbuatkan ak pening...ak fkir klo ak ambek 7 sbjct...insyaAllah llus..tp xsure bleh llus smua or x....klo ak ambek half2...nnti ak da xde duet nk smbung sem dpan...da la ak ny kering...sesak der...bila ak pkir cita2 ak plak..yg nk dduk negara luar 2...lg lah mcm xkan tercpai...sbb nk idup kat mlaysia pun da mcm nyawa2 ikan..ny kan plak nk idup kt luar ngara..aduhh...let it be psal ambition ak yg xkesudahan 2...angan2 jer smua 2...yg skrang ny...ak stress psal ny lah...da la almost 80% subject yg ak ambek killer...aduuuhhh...tension btol lah....klo nk mintak nsihat miss plak...nnti ak slahkan miss plak sem dpan...sbb i2 biasanya akan terjadi...erghhh...stressss....dgn miss yg mcm 2....mcm mne la idup ak ny...xtntu arah btol...bile pkir bnya2..rsa mcm nk quit pun ade...tp ak bertahan demi family ak...moreover my mom lah ofcozz....becoz..she deadly want to see me success in my life...but in the same time...im suffered from her willing...aduhhh...msih lg tersepit oleh keadaan....but my lovely said...dia xnk bg ak pning kpala..klo bleh dia sruh ak keje jer...ak mmg nk sngt keje drpda blajar ny...ak da pnat..tp bak kata org tua...xbaek plak mngeluh nsib sndri...erghhh...im so stress out!!..but i need to finished my stdy..however it takes..mat saleh ckap by hook or by crook i must finish it...it must hve a silver lightning behind all this thing..ak skrang ny...hnya boleh mngikut arus org kata...kmana arus itu mmbawa ku...disitulah ak berada...i cant make my own decision yet..kerana ape..sbb nyer im not stand on my own foot yet...bhasa mudah..ak blom bleh berdikari lg...or berdiri ats kaki sndri..ak pun xthu..idup ak ny akn di akhiri dgn "they live happy ever after" ataupun tidak...itu smua ak srahkan kpada yg Maha Esa lah.....next week...x next week sngt lah..lusa da start a new week...so i must attending a class..sbb da sminggu ak dduk sesaje kt umah..its time for stdy..stdy ker??...hahhahaa...ak ny sbnrnyer mlas tahap dewa sngt nk blaja...lgi pun..i dnt really like my course...hmmm...BTW love da BAMBOOS!!~~..adios...oyasumi nasai!!.
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